"He didn't hurt me in bed," Sansa says quietly. It's embarrassing, in a way, to be talking about this but she's always been able to talk to him about these things. Sometimes she thinks that the soldier is someone who knows her better than she knows herself. Still, it's important to make certain he knows she wasn't hurt physically; Sansa doesn't think anyone could win a fight against the soldier at all.
"I liked what happened. I just thought I was doing things the modern way. Women in my time are just married to one man after the other and I thought that I was being modern to be...willing to be casual about it. I was trying to be what I thought he wanted."
That, she thinks, might have been the problem all along. When he says that she can pretend Tony is a concubine who isn't worth her trouble, she cannot help but laugh. Still, if Kings can have concubines and whores, can't a Queen? He's not really wrong.
"Then he's Tony Snow," she says. "Even if it's just between us. He liked to spend time with James but I guess it's within my right to withhold that. That's why I thought...I don't know. I thought his words meant something because he was kind to my son. I didn't think a man could deceive me again."
"You should only try to be what you want to be. Just because someone is casual about it, doesn't mean that you have to be."
Which goes for so many things, truly, but he supposes that he has particularly strong feelings about choosing one's own path and the decisions that feel right for oneself. He can't truly relate to how she's feeling, having no desire to share physical interactions with another, but he does understand the pressures that can come from not being what someone else expects.
He nods as she renames Tony in her view. That's important, he thinks; names and family ties mean much to her and this, he thinks, is a small step in her healing process. "You have the right to control your son's entire world, especially considering his age. You should do what's best for him; there seem to be plenty of others who would be a good role model that he will not lack for babysitters."
"I'm sitting next to a role model," Sansa says, pressing a kiss against his temple. Talking to him almost always makes her feel better and she's glad she unburdened herself with him. Her soldier would never disparage her or think less of her so long as she does things for herself (she thinks) and she does love him.
"I love you, you know. You're the only person who understands me in and out. You don't think I'm ugly or weak because Ramsay nearly broke me. You don't judge my choices. You just care about me, in your way. You never ask me to be anything other than what I am."
And, in the same vein, she doesn't ask it of him. "I'm glad you came back. We take care of one another."
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"I liked what happened. I just thought I was doing things the modern way. Women in my time are just married to one man after the other and I thought that I was being modern to be...willing to be casual about it. I was trying to be what I thought he wanted."
That, she thinks, might have been the problem all along. When he says that she can pretend Tony is a concubine who isn't worth her trouble, she cannot help but laugh. Still, if Kings can have concubines and whores, can't a Queen? He's not really wrong.
"Then he's Tony Snow," she says. "Even if it's just between us. He liked to spend time with James but I guess it's within my right to withhold that. That's why I thought...I don't know. I thought his words meant something because he was kind to my son. I didn't think a man could deceive me again."
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Which goes for so many things, truly, but he supposes that he has particularly strong feelings about choosing one's own path and the decisions that feel right for oneself. He can't truly relate to how she's feeling, having no desire to share physical interactions with another, but he does understand the pressures that can come from not being what someone else expects.
He nods as she renames Tony in her view. That's important, he thinks; names and family ties mean much to her and this, he thinks, is a small step in her healing process. "You have the right to control your son's entire world, especially considering his age. You should do what's best for him; there seem to be plenty of others who would be a good role model that he will not lack for babysitters."
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"I love you, you know. You're the only person who understands me in and out. You don't think I'm ugly or weak because Ramsay nearly broke me. You don't judge my choices. You just care about me, in your way. You never ask me to be anything other than what I am."
And, in the same vein, she doesn't ask it of him. "I'm glad you came back. We take care of one another."